I feel out of place in almost any social setting. I am that person who, when the server tells me to enjoy my meal, I say “you, too!” like a bumbling fool. Please tell me I am not the only one!
Any time I have to go into a situation where I don’t know the venue or any of the people I get really bad anxiety. My palms get clammy and my heart starts racing. I disguise it by being overly talkative, so most people don’t even realize how awkward I feel.
One of the times I felt the most out of place was when I went on my first General Motors Business Accounting Manager’s Council prize trip to Washington D.C. I didn’t know anyone there and being a prize trip, it was very fancy. If you know me, you know I don’t really do fancy. LOL I had to dress up nice and we were eating in fine dining restaurants that I had never eaten at in my life. Like, why do I need 4 forks and 4 spoons? I was way out of my element. Wine was my friend on that trip!
I am definitely working on this because it’s not a rational way to feel. I am sure I am not the only person who feels this way. I will say that living in the south is helping with this. Everyone is so friendly that I feel more comfortable making small talk with a stranger. Here’s to conquering social anxiety and being more comfortable in my own skin.
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